Sunday, June 21, 2009
22 04

life is wonderful. was wonderful.

slack slack slack. too much!

crap. may my drive come back to me :(

Friday, June 12, 2009
20 43

finally over. temporarily, better than nothing though.

sleepless nights, burnt weekends, stressful sleeps. i am sooooo glad everything has come to a temporary halt. enough for me to rest and have a peaceful sleep tonight.

worth it? well some yes, some possibly no.

it's over, and i am going to live life starting tomorrow! with k and parties haha

now, going to claim my well deserved rest. nites everyone! :)

Wednesday, May 06, 2009
20 51

what a great retreat with the exco! we are finally stepping down woohoo! (after finish planning agm, tt is. zz)

anw. talking about agm. turn up for AGM okay ppl! 18th May, LTK-2, 18 15 hrs! haha:D

Thursday, April 23, 2009
23 10

it's the beginning of a new term. we're all back in school, but somehow things already feel different. for the fact that we're year 3s now, to begin with.

somehow i feel like there aint much time left. it's only this semester, and 1 more semester, and then boom. its graduation. so an inner voice is telling me that if i dont improve (academically, professionally, personally) maximally during these 2 semesters, then i never will, since... (quote o,o) "life as a student is supposed to be less threatening and hence a good place to start a change".

hopefully, by the time i step up the graduation stage, i'll be satisfied with these aspects of myself.

academically, nothing much to whine about but i do have my own expectations which i hope i dont fall too short of.

professionally, woa plenty to work on. beginning with one, my serious lack of ability to see them as human beings as well and my hence-compromised interpersonal skills on a certain level. i hate that problem of mine. it gets frustrating, especially when i've tried but still couldnt get it over... 'then try again la', i know. as if it's easy. o.o two, to be able to do things FASTER and more efficiently. i realise i am becoming less productive, less efficient and have a lower sense of self-urgency! haha dear friends, call me cheetah (or whatever animal that's faster than gui o.o) alright! because it's the self-fufilling prophecy haha.

last aspect - personally. which kinda ties in with the professional aspect. one, to release the drive in me (yea i know, im starting again o.o) to excel in aspects that i used to just 'hope to get a so-so acceptable level', and then try to cover it up with aspects im stronger in. since bleah clinicals take up like about 6 module weightage, i concluded that the strategy will no longer work, and i can no longer try and catch back and even things out with other modules that now take up only a zz weightage. two, courage? to get out of my very cushioned comfort zone which i had self-perceived as safe. now the way i see it, there are plenty of dangers lurking if i should stay in my comfort zone. haha. so i hope i will be able to get out, or at least, take steps out gradually. starting with, issue number 1 and 2. if you know what that is.

oh, this entry turned out to be a reflection! practising metacognition. haha. what about you? :)

sigh. time waits for no man. i hope to stand proud and confident of myself (intrinsically, not on the material level) when i graduate, that i will be able to face others and myself whenever i say to patients, 'i am an occupational therapist and i'll be seeing you today'.

Monday, April 13, 2009
19 48

i think that is it. this is it.

this is where i am.

i guess i'll just have to accept.

just one of those times i've not made it.

sometimes...

Saturday, April 04, 2009
07 40

i am up and awake early in the morning. rise and shine!

i should do more. in 2 weeks, is there enough time to begin with?

yes if i sleep less, watch less tv, spend my saturdays in the hospital (i realise the hospital is a good place to work on saturday afternoons when there is absolutely NObody!)

in the hospital, i dont like the feeling that my every word and action is being watched. saturdays are the only days i feel less tensed, alone and productive.

i have to do more.! i have a feeling i am going to regret it if i dont give more, or show more. argh. last two weeks.

my last struggle.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009
18 55

breathe. breathe deeply.

hope i get no more deep breaths from her. a couple more times...

i must breathe deeply, she prob should stop breathing deeply.

ugh. what am i talking about?!

crap. tt's how i feel there and now.